Hi Mac

3 plus Long hard years have gone by without you by our side.  It has taken me thiee years to be able to see this in writing. I don't want it to be real.  Zack has moved on....joey is as tall as you dad with a beard and mustache and a spitting image of you.  I always commented on you "Italian strut" and your boy has it!  I love it.. I think of you everyday and say goodnite each evening. Oh!!!! Make are you root Joe on like you did for Zack playing baseball.  Wish you were here to practice with your boy. He's a sophomore in he already and playing jv baseball for the first year. Mac he is such a handsome smart young man. I know your proud.  As for your baby girl Jackie rose "Jr"... She is just beautiful. She got your personality so mom is on her toes and spinning.  She's a freshman already. Mac she misses you deeply and often writes you letters telling you so. She never picked up her clarinet and played again after God needed you because she was so excited for you to come to her concert that coming Friday.  She never told me why she stopped until recently. I still cry as I am now thinking of you and wishing you were still here cause the still need dad and I don't want to mess anything up!!!¡you know I'm the pushover.  Mac keep watch over your babies and visit me more in my dream's. They come to few and far between. My heart aches...I imagine its from the part missing when you left without saying goodbye.  We talk about you often and we made a beautiful  collage of our family and life together hung on the living room wall. I look as

T the pictures everyday. You are Soooo handsome!!!  Well I love you Mac. We all love you. Trying to stay strong but that was one of your great qualities so I don't do so well..  Rest in peace my beautiful husband and friend.  Soar with the angels until we all meet again. Taken to soon my love. So many years to go planned.  Our last words were I love you. I had a missed call from you that evening....maybe to say you were running late...I don't know. I have felt bad for the longest time that I didn't call you back until you were a ready gone....but now I think that holding onto our last words happened for that reason. Forced missed. So wish you were here babycakes. All our love to you...Karen..Zack...joey and Jackie Testoni. Kisses and hugs going up